Wednesday, May 16, 2007

And the Winner Is.....



Mary!! A big Thank You to everyone who stops by and visits, and leaves a comment. It's been a great year!!


Tomorrow I'm off to Utah for a couple of weeks - this is just too exciting. My son and DDIL are going also, and we figured out that he and I haven't travelled together in 21 years!! That was a shocker, since we were always going someplace when he was young. Seems too strange. And this trip, he's in charge, he's making all the decisions - I'm the Gramma in the back seat, so that's more strange. I'm going to enjoy that actually - he gets to pump all the gas!

Under the heading of Mixed Emotions comes the third anniversary of Tim's death, on Friday. I hate that I have to be gone then, it's the way everyone's timing worked out. DH can not handle this reality at all - he will probably never be able to deal with it. Even on his best days if someone mentions Tim, he crumples. He still can't bring up the good times, the good memories, only the bad. I wish he could. Losing a child is just so shocking, so against every Law of Nature, that accepting it is difficult at best and impossible sometimes. Losing one horribly makes it all the worse. There are no family pictures up in our house despite the 5 living kids and 8 grandkids; all the pictures are in boxes. DH can't handle seeing Tim's picture, and I will not put up the rest of the family and leave him out. Someday.


It's 220 miles from Salt Lake City airport to Moms house -- how many quilt stores are there in that stretch? I'll let you know! Bye bye!

6 comments:

Carole said...

Have a safe trip and enjoy the time with your son. Don't forget to report in on your purchases. Happy quilting!

Leigh said...

I'll be thinking of you. Take care.

Finn said...

Hi Su Bee, do have a good and a safe trip. And have FUN!! Life is short and unpredicatable, eat dessert first *S*
Just popped over to say I'd left you a present, but it will keep til you get back..*VBS* Big hugs for a hard time of year and a good trip home, Finn

Rosy said...

Just have fun! I know... they "stuff" you in the backseat and tell you "they'll" take care of everything! LOL Enjoy being "taken care of" for as long as it last. Live,laugh,love! (Not necessarily in that order either!)

MOLLY said...

I hope the trip will help your husband. I have never lost a child, but can only imagine how hard it would be. My uncle lost a child and my mother would always say that he could handle anything as he had had the ultimate loss. If you can handle that, you can handle anything. Maybe your husband needs some therpy. It certainly could not hurt. I feel for you. Thank you for visiting my site and I have enjoyed visiting yours. great blog!

Quilting Journey said...

Even though we have 'talked' about this before, just know that it will be a little more bearable in time. Not the loss...that will never, ever go away, but perhaps the ability to handle the pain will strengthen. A loss of this magnitude creates such a long term pain. Please just know that all of us who read here, send you and your husband lots of love and deep, deep caring.