Saturday, September 06, 2008

As the World Turns

Sometimes Life just sucks - that's all there is to it. And oftentimes - quite often in fact, bad things happen to good people and everyone is left to deal with the mess the best they know how. About a month ago, the 19 yr old son of a friend of mine took his life because of a failed romance. I wish these kids could see just how the destruction they leave behind ruins the lives of everyone they love. In their pain they assume no one will care and of course not only are they so wrong, but they can't imagine how far the ripples of their selfish act will spread. His death ripped open unhealed wounds in our house of Tim's death 4 years ago; also at age 19, also by his own hand. DH had a complete meltdown, becoming in turns nasty and surly, or weepy/inconsolable or just silent. To make matters worse, Tim's birthday is approaching and of course it's always a hard time. I'm clinging to my newly-found good mental health and trying to figure out the best way to help my husband and deal with my own sadness and thoughts of Tim and there just hasn't been a lot of room in there for much else. Relentlessly, Life goes on............
Last Sunday, I pecked a bit in my sewing room and DH pecked a bit in his shop, and midway thru the day our pastor pulled up to the house, hopped out and handed Hunny a package saying "I was thinking of you two today" and drove off, all in a minutes time. Hunny brought it in to me - a HOT loaf of fresh bread, right out of the oven! The first thing I did was take a picture.........

OK OK -- so that was the second thing I did. Now as amazing as that is - here's the rest of the story. Pastor and his wife live about 15 miles from us! This bread was HOT - it melted the butter! That simple act felt like a huge blessing - like rain breaking a heatwave or a warm quilt on a cold night, or hugs from Grandma. It felt like someone was telling us - "I care" and of course, Someone was. It had quite a profound effect on me. And Life goes on.........
Remember the cute little carved wooden seam ripper I found on my vacation a couple of months ago? Well, I showed my friend Rosie, who ran home and told her Honey, who owns a lathe and started making some! Today at Guild she gave me one for my upcoming birthday!

Is that gorgeous, or WHAT?? It's made from madrone, an extremely dense hardwood native to California and very beautiful. The handle as you can see is large, fits perfectly in my big mitt - and I can't hardly put it down! It's soft and smooth and feels like a worry stone in my hand - I think I held it most of the way thru the guild meeting. Oh shoot -- I have another early birthday present to show you but forgot to take a picture. Gee -- you'll have to stay tuned! Life goes on..............
I took the Rebel to guild for Show'n'Tell and got a good response, and even tho we're more than a month past the quilt show deadline they were a few quilts short so the Rebel will stand again. Guess I better finish clipping all the threads. If it wins so much as an honorable mention I guess I'll have to forget all about the PAIN it caused me!!! ROFL -

There's probably someone in your life struggling to deal with the fact that Life does go on. If you're so inclined remember them in your prayers, or take them a loaf of bread. What looks healed on the surface after some time has passed could still be raw underneath and you might just light up their day.
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10 comments:

Kim said...

I'm glad to hear you and your Hunny are muddling along as best you can. Hang in there--because really, what else can you do? Be good to one another. And remember to take time to do the things that give you pleasure.

The Rebel's looking pretty darn good to me! And so is that seam ripper--beautiful work! Happy upcoming birthday, Su Bee!

Lindah said...

Thank you for sharing this story, Sue. My heart goes out to you and your DH and to your friends. I cannot imagine the pain, but yes, Someone knows and cares and will lead the way through the dark times. --Linda H

Teresa said...

((((Su Bee)))) I am so sorry for your loss and for the pain you still feel. I wish there were a way that we could open the eyes of some of the young people and let them see how wonderful life can be once they get beyond their pain. Please know I will have you and your hubby and your friends family in my prayers.

Love that seam ripper!

~Bren~ said...

You are in my continued prayers.
Isaiah 61:3 for you my friend....
To appoint unto them that mourn in Zion, to give unto them beauty for ashes, the oil of joy for mourning, the garment of praise for the spirit of heaviness; that they might be called trees of righteousness, the planting of the LORD, that he might be glorified

Martha said...

"God needs Christian witnesses in all situations." This is the only thing said to me that helped in the slightest bit to ease the pain of losing my mom. You may be instrumental in someone else's life.

Feeling Simply Quilty said...

time time time...

My goodness, life isn't fair...just really really hard sometimes...but, it goes on and we can always bake bread...smile.

em's scrapbag said...

So sorry for your hurt. Glad you had a little comfort in the bread. May little kindness fill your life and let you know how much God loves you.

Fabricfaire said...

My dear friend:There have been times when I have thought that I just can't handle another distressing,agonizing,painful and heartbreaking moment of life...that is when I put myself in His hands and ask for help; He never fails me!! It doesn't come the way I expect it, but it comes. Just like the hot bread!
xoxo

Fabricfaire said...

My dear friend:There have been times when I have thought that I just can't handle another distressing,agonizing,painful and heartbreaking moment of life...that is when I put myself in His hands and ask for help; He never fails me!! It doesn't come the way I expect it, but it comes. Just like the hot bread!
xoxo

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